Why?

Ever since Mom died I’d asked God why? I’d become enamored with understanding the fullness of what I was facing. I prayed, they died. I longed for them, they seemed so far away. Yet, within the two months after Dad passed, there was a shift in my thinking. Suddenly, there was a shift in the core of my why. Instead of focusing on why my parents died, I started focusing on why God kept me through it all. There are people who literally “lose it” after the death of one parent. Yet there I was facing the loss of two parents in such a short period of time and I was still functioning; I was still believing.
 
It was in exploring the why of my provision that I began embracing the truth that God had a greater plan and purpose for my life. The way I see it, if God kept me through this tragedy, surely, He has a greater plan and purpose for my life.  I could spend the rest of my life asking God why He took my parents, but how much more encouraging is it to ask why he is keeping me. Surely God has something up His sleeve. If God didn’t have a plan for me, they would have buried me right next to my parents. However, since God still has a plan for my life, I couldn’t die even at the most vulnerable time of my life...and neither can you.